“I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than depression and I am braver than loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.”
I wanna go home
But I’m starting to doubt (after only 3 days) whether or not this is the better choice for me. I’m starting to doubt whether or not I should become a veterinarian… if that’s the career path I want to take. Here’s the mini debate I’m having in my head right now:
“Is the whole living on campus lifestyle the right choice for me?”
“If I don’t live on campus, and I don’t like commuting, what will it be then? Drop out of college? Take online courses? What?”
“Can I move out of the dorms halfway through the year and commute the second semester? Is that a possibility?”
“What if I don’t want to become a veterinarian? But doing something with animals is what I want to work with as my career…does dog/animal training make enough to support me and a future family when that time comes?”
“How am I going to discuss this with my family? I don’t want to feel like I’m disappointing them because we’ve sunk all this money into getting a college education for me, and now I’m debating whether or not I want to live on campus, go after this vet career, and all that stuff…?”
“I’m so confused… what are you trying to talk yourself into or out of?”
“Everybody’s really nice here, and I’m getting along great with some of the people I’ve met so far…. so what’s the problem girl?”
CAN ANYBODY HELP ME!
Is this just college freshman jitters (that will go away in a week or so), the course load I’m taking (cause let’s be real, the syllabi I just got today is kinda intimidating…), or am I just being completely paranoid about absolutely nothing?
Do any of you other college freshmen who are starting college this fall (2015) feeling the same way… nervous, unsure?